Holy cow... So much has happened in these last few years!!
Where to start?!
I really don't know where to begin, after all, this is considered my second blog post, EVER!!
Well, my girls are pretty grown now! Sam is now 9 and Faith just turned 8 last week! Where has time gone!?!? The girls are currently on summer vacation and they are loving it! I, in the other hand,not so much!! Work tends to get in the way of spending time with them! We have had a couple beach days here and there but would love to go more often. Went to Sunset Beach, California last Friday. Beautiful place!! Clean, not too many people, lots of families and tide wasn't too high!
My kids have been the biggest blessing in my life! I have become a bigger and better person thanks to them!! I guess that leads me to my next order of business... Giving you a little better understanding of who I am.
This year I have decided to really focus on putting things on paper. Writing down thoughts and feelings might just be the best way for me to get things off my chest and feel like I am being heard! Sometimes, I think, we find it hard to speak our mind because we are constantly being interrupted and opinions fly from here to there, when all you really need is just an ear to listen to you. I have become very close to a friend over the last year and I have found that she has helped me overcome so much in my life. She has motivated me to do so much more!! Thank you, Laura!! You are an inspiration and a great role model!!
For starters, my childhood really made an impact in my life, as it does to all! I grew up with my grandparents in Guatemala. My mother came to the U.S. when I was 2 months old. I don't remember ever meeting her before I was 8, but I guess I did meet her back when I was 5. Either way, I remember meeting my Mom and Dad and realizing there were 2 little girls who my parents called my sisters. Shocking to me!!! How did all this happen and I didn't know about it? You mean,the people I grew up calling Mom and Dad aren't really my parents, but grandparents? You could only imagine how confused I must have been!! As time went on, things began to make sense but I was never really happy about the situation. I wanted things to go back to how I knew them to be! As I became a teenager, things got VERY complicated! I wanted answers and began to rebel. Maybe I was hurt? Maybe at some point I felt, abandoned by my mother? Maybe I was just confused and never REALLY understood? I began to resent my Mom and Dad, questioning why they had more kids before taking care of me, their first born. Things never seemed to get any better for me, or at least that's what it seemed like! Between adolescence and changes in my life, I can only say, I was one very confused human being!! I didn't feel like I belonged. My relationship with my parents was nonexistent!! I couldn't tell them how I felt because I was so insecure of myself and my situation that I felt lost and confused. As if it weren't difficult enough to be a teenager!! As I got to my late teens, I got a full time job at a post production house in Glendale. My Dad, worked there and I decided this was a good way to get my way through school and have money in my pocket. I fell in love with the industry, with the money and the life that was forming for myself. I still lived at home with my Mom, Dad and sisters so things were very interesting because now there were three teens in the house! Poor Mom and Dad!! Shortly after I started this job, I FELL IN LOVE, with the one I now call my husband!! Things were extremely difficult because my Dad didn't really want me to date this guy! He was a "Bad Boy"!!
I think that's when my life really took a turn and I began to live and be who I thought I was... Little did I know, I was just beginning to explore and become myself. Richard, my hubby, taught me to be myself. I learned so much about myself in a matter of months!! I got pregnant with Samantha 6months after having started dating Rich. I must admit, I was petrified!!!! I was twenty at the time and my life really had just begun.
I think I will bring this to an end for now... Thank you to those of you who have taking the time to read this!
Happy blogging!!
Xo- D
